goals.

so, i went to the gym 4 times this week... and i ate well until friday night. it's been downhill since. but hey, that wasn't part of the week's goals, now was it...

this week is going to be interesting... i'll only be able to make it to the gym twice, since i'm going HOME! on thursday after work... (and i don't have time on wednesdays...) i think i'm going to try for something active at least 5 times this week anyway... but i should obviously be working on my dietary modifications too...

week 3 goal: stick to modified eating habits everyday except friday
longer term goal: button white coat (which i can do as long as i'm standing... )
end-all be-all goal: 140 lbs

too much to say.

i hate sprint. officially. hate them. do you know anyone in monterrey mexico? yeah, me neither. but apparently my phone does. and it's been calling regularly... $224 worth of regularity. and apparently we can't dispute the calls until they are actually billed. the lady told me they were calls made throughout my billing cycle on to multiple phone numbers, but could not tell me any more details regarding specific dates or times of said calls until the end of my billing cycle. so i checked my phone's outgoing call list, expecting to find 150 minutes worth of calls made by ??? to ??? and instead found the last 20 phone numbers that were called were all to people located in the good ole' usofa. for the love. it never ends.

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and while i was lamenting to myself about how awful all this was, i remembered a patient we saw today. i'm on heme/onc. hematology/oncology. blood/cancer. she's 54, nonsmoker, nondrinker and until 2 weeks ago, she was healthy. then she went to the doctor and found out she had lung cancer so she started radiation right away. today she came back and we told her that it was in her brain, her liver and her bones too. if we do nothing she'll die in 6 weeks. if we do horribly nasty therapy that starts with a dangerous surgery to place a catheter into her brain, she may get 14 weeks, but she'll be very sick the whole time. makes my $200 phone bill seem a little trivial, eh?

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so, goals... well, sorry i'm late. i've been busy crossing things off lists. turns out i didn't exactly meet last week's goal. i had a little run-in with the norwalk virus that rendered me unable to leave my apartment for a couple days. but... it was a good way to jump start weight loss... i'm down 5.1 lbs.

this week's goal: gym 4 times (i've already been twice)
short term goal: button white coat
end-all be-all goal: 140 lbs.

confession.

ok, today is when we get real. guess what... i weigh too much. no, i didn't just realize it, i've known since i was about 10 or 12. i've just decided that today is the day that i tell you about it. the day that i draw the line in the sand, so to speak. i have gained about 20 pounds since my accident in december. i'm not ok with that. so, the thought is, if i tell you about my current weight loss efforts, i will be more inclined to keep at it. i can't bring myself to tell you at this point how much i weigh or how much i'd like to lose, but give me time. i'll tell you when i'm a little more comfortable with the actual numbers.

the new game i intend to play (and i invite you to play along) is to post a weekly goal. you are welcome at any time to ask me about said goal and i am required to answer you honestly. sounds like fun, huh? my week will go from monday to sunday, and i'll do my best to post my goal for the following week on sunday. if they're not up by monday, you can bug me about it.

i'll also carry through a longer term goal. not the end-all be-all magic number that i'd like to see, but a little something that i'm working towards that will take longer than a week... i'll carry that goal until i reach it, then make up a new one. see, you want to play too, don't you? (it doesn't have to be related to your weight... it could be anything - your level of physical activity, how much reading you do, organizational goals, etc...)

this week only has a few days left in it, and i am going to a party that will likely make goal meeting difficult... so i'll make this week's goal one that i'm half-way to meeting already.

WEEK 1 GOAL: go to the gym 4 days this week. (see, i've already been twice.)
LONGER TERM GOAL: to button my white coat
END-ALL BE-ALL GOAL: 140lbs.

goodbye roots.

got my hair done today!

04.05.06.

i love dates that are catchy... like this one.

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my precepter is out of town this week at a conference, and i'm hanging out with a different doctor who happens to not work on wednesdays. beautiful. so here's the list of all the things i got done today.

1. moved an old computer desk from the corner of our living room into my bedroom to be used as a vanity.
2. cleaned my room.
3. put the living room back in order (minus the old computer desk from the corner).
4. cleaned my bathroom.
5. ate frozen lean cuisine pizza at 10:15 am.
6. watched food tv for a couple hours.
7. went to the laundromat where i had to fight off a 4 year old black kid (i'm really confused about the kid's heritage... he was calling an asian woman "mommy" and there was an grandma-aged white lady with them too.) who came over begging for a quarter and when i wouldn't give him one (because i'm that mean) he reaches into my pocket and grabs ahold of my phone at which point i grab ahold of his hand and tell him he needs to let go.
8. watch the 4 year old black kid (who, by the way, at first i couldn't tell if he was a boy or a girl as he had a ponytail) with the asian mommy and white grandma sneak out of the laundromat into the parking lot and try opening the car door. on MY CAR!
9. finished the laundry.
10. put all the laundry away.
11. listened to two sermons i downloaded from the church website.
12. wrote some thank you notes - 3 to doctors i've rotated with, 2 to people at the church here who had me over to their homes on saturday (one for lunch, one for dinner).
13. wrote a blog that is hopefully long enough to get rid of the gross wound picture for the majority of you with average sized computer monitors.
14. (from here on are things i intend to accomplish with the rest of the evening...) return a shirt that i bought at target without trying it on.
15. buy deodarant.
16. go to church.
17. have some whitey's ice cream. only. the. best. stuff. on. the. planet.

it's shake and bake, and i helped.

because i can't stand not letting you know about this... the doctor i'm with this month does wednesday morning wound clinic instead of thursday... and he MAKES ME HELP!!!! yes. me. with my own two hands i used a metal curette to scrape away layers of ickiness from wounds that look like this:ps, jen - the new picture is just for you... love ya, babe!