blink.

how come it's harder to sleep after you receive a phone call you may or may not have been waiting all evening for than it was before, when you were starting to think the call may or may not come. in other words... why in the world am i wide awake. i'd like to blame my current schedule... but a big part of me hopes it's something more.

validation. times two.

2/11
"Oh I was going to tell you, THANK YOU for the cholestrimine (sp?) vaseline goo stuff...his butt is almost all healed...it is still pretty pink but no longer BRIGHT red. YOU ARE AN AWESOME DOCTOR! HEART BIG TIME!"


2/12
"hey...

wanted to give you a compliment while i am thinking about it. linda, the nurse prac, just came into rounds and asked "who wrote the admission note for cole?" she thought it was top notch, very well done....she said it was easy to ready and said it was "attending level."

job well done....i am proud of you! it is great to see fellow DMU alums doing so dang well.

you go girl."

things that make you go "hmm."

i hate time to get up time. i used to think it was that i hated morning. now i realize, i just hate end of sleeping time.

night owl.

it's my turn... every intern does at least one month of nights, and this month is mine. it's not so bad really. there are 6 residents on, and we have a great group. i truly enjoy the company of my fellow owls. (that's what we are really called, by the way).

what i don't enjoy is this weird transition... going from days (like normal people) to nights (like... owls...) is hard... i did ok yesterday, mostly because they sent me home early for sounding like i was going to die. i slept for almost 10 hrs. but today. today not so much. i slept from about 9am to about 12:30... and i've just been laying in bed since. WISHING myself to sleep. without luck. it's going to be a rough night.

so my current schedule is sunday-thursday nights from 6:30 pm to about 8 am. it is admittedly a lot of hours. but do you see the weekly break in there? the break that some might refer to as a *weekend*??? this is the only month (with the exception of our one month that is "call free") where we have a weekly *weekend*... i'm more than a little excited about that! a LOT more than a little excited actually. :-)