goals.

so, i went to the gym 4 times this week... and i ate well until friday night. it's been downhill since. but hey, that wasn't part of the week's goals, now was it...

this week is going to be interesting... i'll only be able to make it to the gym twice, since i'm going HOME! on thursday after work... (and i don't have time on wednesdays...) i think i'm going to try for something active at least 5 times this week anyway... but i should obviously be working on my dietary modifications too...

week 3 goal: stick to modified eating habits everyday except friday
longer term goal: button white coat (which i can do as long as i'm standing... )
end-all be-all goal: 140 lbs

too much to say.

i hate sprint. officially. hate them. do you know anyone in monterrey mexico? yeah, me neither. but apparently my phone does. and it's been calling regularly... $224 worth of regularity. and apparently we can't dispute the calls until they are actually billed. the lady told me they were calls made throughout my billing cycle on to multiple phone numbers, but could not tell me any more details regarding specific dates or times of said calls until the end of my billing cycle. so i checked my phone's outgoing call list, expecting to find 150 minutes worth of calls made by ??? to ??? and instead found the last 20 phone numbers that were called were all to people located in the good ole' usofa. for the love. it never ends.

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and while i was lamenting to myself about how awful all this was, i remembered a patient we saw today. i'm on heme/onc. hematology/oncology. blood/cancer. she's 54, nonsmoker, nondrinker and until 2 weeks ago, she was healthy. then she went to the doctor and found out she had lung cancer so she started radiation right away. today she came back and we told her that it was in her brain, her liver and her bones too. if we do nothing she'll die in 6 weeks. if we do horribly nasty therapy that starts with a dangerous surgery to place a catheter into her brain, she may get 14 weeks, but she'll be very sick the whole time. makes my $200 phone bill seem a little trivial, eh?

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so, goals... well, sorry i'm late. i've been busy crossing things off lists. turns out i didn't exactly meet last week's goal. i had a little run-in with the norwalk virus that rendered me unable to leave my apartment for a couple days. but... it was a good way to jump start weight loss... i'm down 5.1 lbs.

this week's goal: gym 4 times (i've already been twice)
short term goal: button white coat
end-all be-all goal: 140 lbs.

confession.

ok, today is when we get real. guess what... i weigh too much. no, i didn't just realize it, i've known since i was about 10 or 12. i've just decided that today is the day that i tell you about it. the day that i draw the line in the sand, so to speak. i have gained about 20 pounds since my accident in december. i'm not ok with that. so, the thought is, if i tell you about my current weight loss efforts, i will be more inclined to keep at it. i can't bring myself to tell you at this point how much i weigh or how much i'd like to lose, but give me time. i'll tell you when i'm a little more comfortable with the actual numbers.

the new game i intend to play (and i invite you to play along) is to post a weekly goal. you are welcome at any time to ask me about said goal and i am required to answer you honestly. sounds like fun, huh? my week will go from monday to sunday, and i'll do my best to post my goal for the following week on sunday. if they're not up by monday, you can bug me about it.

i'll also carry through a longer term goal. not the end-all be-all magic number that i'd like to see, but a little something that i'm working towards that will take longer than a week... i'll carry that goal until i reach it, then make up a new one. see, you want to play too, don't you? (it doesn't have to be related to your weight... it could be anything - your level of physical activity, how much reading you do, organizational goals, etc...)

this week only has a few days left in it, and i am going to a party that will likely make goal meeting difficult... so i'll make this week's goal one that i'm half-way to meeting already.

WEEK 1 GOAL: go to the gym 4 days this week. (see, i've already been twice.)
LONGER TERM GOAL: to button my white coat
END-ALL BE-ALL GOAL: 140lbs.

goodbye roots.

got my hair done today!

04.05.06.

i love dates that are catchy... like this one.

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my precepter is out of town this week at a conference, and i'm hanging out with a different doctor who happens to not work on wednesdays. beautiful. so here's the list of all the things i got done today.

1. moved an old computer desk from the corner of our living room into my bedroom to be used as a vanity.
2. cleaned my room.
3. put the living room back in order (minus the old computer desk from the corner).
4. cleaned my bathroom.
5. ate frozen lean cuisine pizza at 10:15 am.
6. watched food tv for a couple hours.
7. went to the laundromat where i had to fight off a 4 year old black kid (i'm really confused about the kid's heritage... he was calling an asian woman "mommy" and there was an grandma-aged white lady with them too.) who came over begging for a quarter and when i wouldn't give him one (because i'm that mean) he reaches into my pocket and grabs ahold of my phone at which point i grab ahold of his hand and tell him he needs to let go.
8. watch the 4 year old black kid (who, by the way, at first i couldn't tell if he was a boy or a girl as he had a ponytail) with the asian mommy and white grandma sneak out of the laundromat into the parking lot and try opening the car door. on MY CAR!
9. finished the laundry.
10. put all the laundry away.
11. listened to two sermons i downloaded from the church website.
12. wrote some thank you notes - 3 to doctors i've rotated with, 2 to people at the church here who had me over to their homes on saturday (one for lunch, one for dinner).
13. wrote a blog that is hopefully long enough to get rid of the gross wound picture for the majority of you with average sized computer monitors.
14. (from here on are things i intend to accomplish with the rest of the evening...) return a shirt that i bought at target without trying it on.
15. buy deodarant.
16. go to church.
17. have some whitey's ice cream. only. the. best. stuff. on. the. planet.

it's shake and bake, and i helped.

because i can't stand not letting you know about this... the doctor i'm with this month does wednesday morning wound clinic instead of thursday... and he MAKES ME HELP!!!! yes. me. with my own two hands i used a metal curette to scrape away layers of ickiness from wounds that look like this:ps, jen - the new picture is just for you... love ya, babe!

birds of a feather.

ok, now i promised a long and entertaining post today. i'm not sure i'll pull through, but i'll throw in a bunch of pictures so it looks long... :-)

i'm in between rotations now. 4 more weeks down. it's amazing how quickly the 4 week blocks fly. i spend the 1st week of every rotation hating it, thinking it's going to be the longest 4 weeks ever, the next two weeks thinking, "hey, this isn't THAT bad..." and the 4th week dreading the end of the week and the awkward here's-my-evaluation and will-you-write-me-a-letter-of-recommendation conversations and the fact that the following week is another week 1.

anyway, this morning, i thought i'd take myself out for a walk. thinking it would feel good to get outside, i went to a park instead of the Y. ok, it was cold, but entertaining enough. i'm not sure how long the trail was, but i was out for a couple hours.

i've never seen a sign like this before, but thought it was pretty interesting.

this bird was the first of many that i saw. it was SO bright red and beautiful.

this was the only mile marker sign i saw, and i'm pretty sure i went well over a couple miles, so i'm not sure what the sign was marking.

one of these things is not like the other... :-)

i'm wondering who this sign is warning. the birds? "hey guys - don't nose dive into the path, it'd hurt!"

these birds were very chatty.

i swear i saw these ducks three different times along the trail, but i'm not sure it was possible. i know that they were the same ducks at least two of the times, but the third time i truly believe it must have been the twin ducks of these ducks.

the tandem bikers. they were cute. i saw them a couple of times.

a couple of geese (i think you can only see one of them in this picture.)

a REALLY old bike. REALLY old.

me...

...and my shadow

ahh... a welcome site...

inside my car... :-) instant smile. hot T has a picture of a cute baby on his dash, and i thought it was a great idea. (my cute baby picture is cuter than his cute baby picture...)

let's make a deal.

ok, i promise, i'll give you a nice, long and interesting post tomorrow.

for today, all you get is this... my feet STINK today!

sick.

in three days, i've eaten 11 servings of guacamole.

staring at babies is officially my favorite pasttime.

decovin, 2 months

nathan, 3 months

me and jen

mom and stacy

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what a great weekend home! the trip was made easier by a few books on cd that i practically had to steal from the davenport public library. don't worry, i did convince them to give me a library card, but it was NOT an easy feat. the books made time pass and the drive almost pleasant. if gas weren't so expensive and i could have every friday off, i'd go home EVERY weekend! wouldn't THAT be fun.

*sigh*

you know how, some days, you're just sad to see the day end? today is one of those days... because my hair is REALLY cute today.

devastation.

i realized this week that i've lost something very dear to me. since the accident and the pinning of my great toe, i no longer have the monkey grasp ability in my right foot that has gotten me through life thus far. this calls for some serious physical therapy.

thursday morning wound clinic.

alternatively titled, "pain in the..."

mindless humor.

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i really admire people who are able to walk into a public bathroom stall that has not been flushed by it's prior, eh... "occupant" and flush it for them. it completely disgusts me and i can't do it. so thank you to you if you can. i don't admire you enough to aspire to be like you, but i really appreciate you.

and they say boys aren't observant.

the other day, we were going out for a good-bye dinner as several of us were leaving detroit. tanner says to me, you put eyelash stuff on. that looks hot. nevermind that i wear it EVERYDAY. he said i looked hot. i heart him.

life size.

time.

i waste so much of it. i'm going to stop doing that. tomorrow.

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i'm thinking about going blonde again.

self.

do you think it's bad that i really like the photo of myself to the right there. the profile picture. several reasons... for lack of anything better to talk about, i'll outline them for you...

1. look at that hair!
2. i like the way my chin sticks out past my hair.
3. have you seen my tan?
4. if you could see the full-size image, you'd know how H.O.T. i look in the reflection
5. i can remember that night... i was on spring break in daytona beach, and sarah and i were getting ready to go out. it was a good time.
6. i like the angle of my chest and the small amount of definition of my clavicle.
7. i like the artistic edge to the photo.
8. i like that you can see the flash in the mirror, but you can't see the person taking the photo.

that's all.

the entry that lacks a good title.

today's the official start day of the scheduling of 4th yr rotations. biggest problem is, i don't really want to do any 4th yr rotations. does anyone have any spare motivation?